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I'm going through a strange time and I don't feel quite myself. Perhaps it's because I'm unemployed and have way too much time to think about stuff, or perhaps it's because I'm doing some inner healing work and stuff is getting stirred up. I just don't know. In either case, I have been feeling numb and disconnected from God since around mid-August. I went on a two week water fast, hoping to get reconnected and instead wound up feeling even further from God. I have no desire to pray or read my Bible and I'm really struggling with that. I feel cold and lifeless.

I left the Reformed Church looking for a charismatic quick fix I thought I'd find in the Vineyard and came up empty. While I still believe in God's ability to heal and pray for the manifestation of His healing touch upon my life, I've come to realize there is so much more I need. My soul needs to actively interact with other souls that love Jesus and long for His presence. I need to rub up against them and be sharpened by them.

++Lord Jesus, I pray that you will guide us to a community
where we will experience the wonder of transformation
as we behold Your glory.++